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God's Mistake
Henk Littlewood
God said, "Let there be Barnacles!"
"Hang on!" Said Adam, "What use are they?"
God said, "Would you rather I create something else?"
"Yes, I'm becoming unhinged
talking to myself.
I wish to procrastinate."
So God created Eve.
And Barnacles had to wait
several million years before we realized
that they can filter food.
Eve never found a use for Adam.
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To a source of beauty in my life
kevin
schultz
Why do you grind and tear in sun-lit strife?
I only sought with ancient artifice
To mend the waste and rend of this,
The gaping emptiness within your life.
I could have cracked you open, Blazing Heart -
Instilled in you the blessing that I know:
How best to live. But better still to show
was solitude: the will to live apart.
And so the passing silence was my tool:
"The salve of Jove that heals all," I thought.
But shadowed flights are still with peril wrought;
By dawn, my wings were dust and I a fool.
With that, the Great Mechanic let me see
The fix, as always: "let the unfilled be."
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[Ode to an Aged Cocktail Waitress]
Dahn
Shaulis
At age thirty-seven
the forces are relentless in their punishment
Banishing her to the smoky reaches of the realm
Flogging her aching back
and her sagging-mother-tits
though she props them up in wire baskets
and she shellacs her thinning hair
and she coats a crimson river
over corners of her lips
and she applies a magic marker
where her eyebrows once resided
and she holds her final grip
by her nicotine-stained fingernails
as her shaded leg encasings
do their very best
to dam the purple rivers
and mounds of bumpy flesh
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I love you on the stormy days
when i am mad at the world and even you
and i couldn't count the innumerable ways
you try to cheer me up,
pulling happiness out of you hat
but when the storm clears i'm sorry
i just wanted to tell you that
so when im difficult and sullen
and i curse you and scream
your being there is golden
and i'll forget my bad dreams
i love you on my stormy days
and i will, always
Magwith
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Undressed
Melissa
She jeopardized herself and
Compromised with the man
Who abandoned her after
The night she surrendered
Herself to him
Now mocked and laughed at
By the ones who shamed her
She tries to suppress her
Feelings and look preoccupied
Engulfed in senseless activities
Altering herself to become
One of them by conforming
To their ways when
Animosity is all she feels
Now solitary and lonely
... her ambition is lost
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To your perfect pink houses and your philosophical Jesus
To your Buddhist literature and tailor made suits
To all the green paper that frees us
And the need to find our roots
To the ones who have died in order to save our Asses
And the belief that only ferries wear boots
To the construction of fantasy for the masses
And the deeds that bare good fruit
To the evident destruction of our own human race
And the rage that will tear us apart
To the misguided apathy in every one of us
And the frailty of the heart
I long for discernment and a friendship with truth
Not for the trappings of luxury but the burden of youth.
brandon
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The Write of Passage
Ian Lund a.k.a.
"Darkrose"
Like a song from an unmarked bird,
The jagged hand prepares to make sacrifice
Hidden in his mind is the key to expression,
Yet, others think it a simple device.
He calls on his creation
To justify his cause
Setting sail upon a new nation,
Where imagination becomes law
Mocked by society,
His work is never done
Showing peace and serenity,
He'll win them one by one
Sharpening his weapon
He whittles away the stone
To answer the call of his battlefield
This Poet stands alone
Armed with graphite sword in hand,
The poet delivers his message
"Forever will live my pathway
Giving way to The Write of Passage..."
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Damn the Wishing Well,
a top the high hill.
Threw in my coin,
but even still.
I waited and waited,
and continued to wait,
praying my wish,
would not arrive late.
Damn the wishing well,
my wish did not come true.
So much for five cent dreams,
and ten cent wishes too.
yoda17
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Sun Goddess
Kirk Jones
A watrous implement of luster.
A depth of rose-quartz hue.
Saturating, or basking on the edge of the beach,
with the edge of the sun hitting you.
The sunset achieved so much faster,
than the childhood masquerade.
With the full water's edge running under you,
as the sunlight on you starts to fade.
Your years as a sun goddess are over.
Your soul and it now become one.
For just as your luminous beauty my dear,
it fades like the edge of a satin sun.
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A Final Thought
-Elizabeth Kendall
At last I have lost my America
My Beth
My guise of poetry
And realized
That Mr. Dahmer would not
Have been caught
If only he would have used
Tupperware@ Like a good christian.
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crosses rot
gravestones tumble
candles die
martyrs burn
ashes fly
pages tear
shrines fall
statues crumble
until (in the end)
all that is left is
faith
-Devin Fitzgibbons
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It's So Orange
~~~~~Stephanie H.~~~~~
it is so orange out tonight
sky is cast with eerie light
catching day's last shimmer
a sight of Heaven, mere glimmer
breathing in fresh cool air
softly blowing through my hair
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Melancholy Whipcream
Matthew Timmons
Early one afternoon, I was driving in my car and as I looked up in the sky
I saw Melancholy whip cream
Just like the day, you said you Know how much I love you, and you know why I
have to leave.
And as I was crying I saw you drive away from me ..so far, so far, away from me.
I looked up in the sky and lost myself in a sea of melancholy whip cream.
I keep wishing you'd come back, but I know that you are gone for good.
My heart will heal some day with time, the loss I feel it will subside.
Just know in my life you are sublime and when I think of you I see melancholy
whip cream.
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Poet in an Humane Society
Karen Russell
Quiet roar in the quiet of night,
Silken fur bristles with touch
Warm weight on my knees
(Little lamb, who made thee?)
Your need is a comfort to me.
My need swallows me whole
Like pentobarbital straight to the heart
(What the hand dare seize the fire?)
My life to live
Your to expire.
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The Dancer
Sandra S
She walks into her class
and sees hungry eyes,
eager to learn a new step,
and face the challenge
of pointing their toes.
She brings a smile to their faces
as she comes in, bright-eyed
ready to teach them how
to express themselves.
She moves swiftly to the music,
her energy rising with the beat.
They follow her lead
and strive to be as
dynamic and graceful as she.
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TRIED FOR SEASON
rhoda moth
blown away the leaves
the autumn shuts my eyes
and carries in the pain
with cold and windy cries
i lay still till the crack of dawn.
i plead guilty now of envy
like a dew drop hogging ground
now an ocean of emotion
you could sell it by the pound
like the fresh dead fetus of an unborn fawn.
i see now, its useless to fantasize
i know now, its pointless to despise
it took too long for me to realize
boy, you know how i feel
cut him right back down to size.
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The Fountain
By Maren
Comes before one the fountain.
Two cherubs tilting out water,
to give life and spirit to the air.
The water, a dull clear, wavering
from the falling rain.
A wonder of a statue,
proud but now forgotten by all.
One can only be lulled to sleep
by the rhythmic drops of the water.
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A LITTLE DEATH
STEVEN BOE
Signs have weakened the post
Nailed to trees and posted in light
Fight the never ending battle for life
Hold tight it doesn't have to end this way
It doesn't
No more choices it's natures discretion
As long as we are here
As long as we remember
The city will wait the towers will remain
Images of steel
Concrete melts without discourse
And light fades without applause
So go little ones
There's no need for you here now
We have all that we need we see all that we fear
Now face it without allusions
For it holds no answers
Only the sanctity of wisdom that comes from knowing
Chaos comes in spurts of self destructive behavior
Not fixed in puzzles
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WOULD YOU DIE FOR ME?
JDESMARAIS
Hello, it's me,
I don't mean to nag,
But my mountains and hilltops,
are starting to sag.
The strip-mining and logging,
are too much to bear.
and don't get me started,
On what you've done to the air
Would you die for me?
My flesh is covered,
With mountains of tires
and still bears the scars
Of your cigarette fires.
Your suffocating dumps
have clogged up my pores
The fish and the deer
don't thrive as before.
But, would you die for me?
You fight over my riches,
Oh, what power they give.
But, I'll still keep on giving
for as long as I live.
From the food in your bellies
To the grass 'neath your feet,
Till I burn to a cinder
Only yours to defeat.
But would you die for me?...
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They tell me my handwriting is terrible.
When I was in kindergarten, my handwriting was beautiful.
When I was in kindergarten, I was naive.
When that beautiful young teacher tells you how important good handwriting is in
The Great Scheme of Things,
you instantly believe her.
And when you are done with kindergarten,
no more blocks, chocolate milk, or naptime,
you learn that what you write
is more important than how you write it
schadenfroh
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"Remembering"
Nicole B.
Long ago,
that's where we met,
in that beautiful place,
I remember.
I'll never forget,
it was the perfect night,
everything was just right,
I remember.
Everything was silver sparkling,
and the stars shining bright,
lucky for us the mood was just right,
I remember.
The way you came to me,
your smile glowing brightly,
the way you sweetly spoke to me,
it felt as if I were a princess,
I remember.
When that peaceful song came,
and you persuaded me to dance,
everybody staring on, as if we were the perfect couple,
I remember.
But that was a lifetime ago,
and I long for that day again.
I hope we'll meet again,
for we were meant to be, and don't worry,
I'll always remember.
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I sat down waiting what for I don't know
I walked to my room so far down below, and I walked to the store yet I new I was poor, looking for what I was waiting,
I opened the door to many buildings to only one that caught my eye it was a church to witch I would spy.
jcsarda
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This Destructive Little Thing Called Love
Leann
Morrow
Dulling the senses,
it makes it almost impossible
for one to clarify or produce
an even remotely reasonable reaction
to everyday situations.
Should love be considered hazardous
rather than something so wonderful that it lifts you up
to make clouds seem like solid ground?
Perhaps, my friend, just perhaps
It should be declared illegal
as are most other things
one can be addicted to very easily.
Even if it were to be done,
How would this law be enforced?
It is labeled simply as a typical emotion
to be likened unto happiness,
sadness, or even hatred.
It is often included in a trio of words
which humans utter on a daily basis
without realizing the power the word may hold.
It's meaning is often confused or taken for granted.
I know when I use it I often do not truly mean it
and am substituting it for words
such as like, miss or want.
Sometimes I say it and mean it
with every essence of my being
and the receiver just shrugs it off
as if it is one of the three words
aforementioned.
How do we know when we're in it too deep
or perhaps not deep enough?
When do we know if it's time to choke it off
or move on to the next step?
The steps are merely levels of intimacy in the physical
and levels of sobriety in the mental.
If you do indeed choose to heighten one of these,
which would be more exigent?
Which should be considered more important?
Whichever it may be,
I know this emotion has become far too overrated
on my personal priority list.
I have decided there are far more important factors
and emotions to focus on than this
which is so complex that to the naked eye
it appears mere simplicity
when it is, in truth, more intricate
and mind boggling than one can imagine.
Why do fools enter into such a thickened plot as this
when the only ones to solve it
are those who dumb it down to pure physicality?
There are also a chosen few that do master the works
of this ill-learned art
and become so bored with it at the end
that they would just as soon start all over again.
I would like to say that I will never "love" again
and truly mean it but this is an impossibility.
It's odd that I feel I can't live happily
without something that more often than not
makes me miserable.
There should be an Anonymous program
for people like me because, what can I say?
My name's Leann and I'm an addict.
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SHE,She
Sara Gregg
"Ouch", you say to me,
The kitten eats too much,
The house is not warm enough,
The key's are in the door still,
The room still smells like paint,
The TV is to big,
The light's are to dim,
You have a blemish on your cheek,
Your nails break,
All over the pretty girl's face,
And your nose bleeds all over her hair,
You cry on her perfect shoulder's,
Your heart breaks, on her chest,
Her games are played on your stomach,
Your soul cries on her small feet,
Your pain is dissected on her finger nails,
Your body is torn apart in all reality's,
But in heaven,
No one cry's,
Nothing bleeds,
Games are only fun,
Nothing is to be torn apart,
There are no nail's,
Blemish's dont exist,
"Hello, you say to me from heaven,
"You look so pretty", I say to you.
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"Remember me..."
thegostrider
So solitary, loosing my mind in a hurry.
One regular day, one lonely night in my life's
story.
Will I open my eyes in the morning or simply be
burried??
With the science of a giant, I'll drown my pain with
three forties...|
Watching time pass by as getting
high.
I wonder how much longer I'll stay alive...
God's
calling my name, but filled with shame I hide.
Running from the authorities, until they capture
me
Will I live to be twenty-three??? I'll keep killing my
enemies
Since no one seems to let me be
I got to do something
so you remember me.
Don't shed another tear mother dear,
Don't really
wanna be here,
But I will open my eyes so I see clear
My fears are
causing your tears.
So I'm a close my eyes and let myself go
Maybe that
way, one day I'll bask in God's glow.
Go ahead and hate me for the way I am....
But always
remember me, for the way I used to be...
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All your love
--Brandy Lea Laarman
All your love does for me is cause pain
The thought of
you in my mind drives me insane.
You use to listen to me when I told you my fears
You
would hold my hand and wipe away the tears.
You cant handle the feelings that I feel
So you merely
walk away and think my heart will heal.
I'm drowning in my love for you
And you don't think
there's anything you can do.
I used to have this sparkle flaming in my eyes
But
each day I see you a little of it dies.
You use to be the light that set my heart on fire
You
promised me that you would fulfill all my desires.
I can only fantasize of how things use to be
Of how
you use to say you love me.
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Our
Betsy Loeffler
Our lives intercepted
as soon as we talked.
Our hands connected
as soon as we touched.
Our eyes met
and I looked away.
Our fingers caressed
searching for the right thing to say.
Our feet rubbbed gently
soothing each other.
Our bodies in sync
tuned into the other.
Our heads thought
of where this could lead.
Our hearts wondered
if they were on our sleeves.
Our time together
under the stars above.
Our lives were changed
forever, My Love.
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IT'S CALLED LOVE
Lisa Dubois
In my mind I see him near,
Every second his voice I hear.
Yet I see him fading fast,
I know his words will never last.
His warm embrace I long to feel,
My poor heart I know he will steal.
Does he wonder, Does he care,
How can he know of my despair.
Does he long to be with me,
Will he share the dreams I see.
What are these things written above,
Why, my friend, It's Called Love.
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White lights, Black sky
Lone Wolf 25-2-98
White lights, black sky
All I seem to see anymore
Darkness invades my mind
More and more each day
The light comes and goes
But the darkness never leaves
Will I hope to see the light once more
I think not
The darkness is now my home
Where nothing can harm me
My secret place to hide away
From all that hunts me now
My next step
To kill the light that uncovers me
Leaving me open to the world
Now all can see my weakest points
So now is when they will attack
Leaving me here to die alone
Under white lights, black sky.
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East Sun Redemption
Ken Utsick
East sun rise and purify the earth,
awaken our eyes to a new day's birth.
As the shadows of the trees reach out to the west,
the fowl flys free from midnight's rest.
West wind blow and prevent the day
from dropping below the darkening way.
With your mighty gusts the sun won't set
so blackened eyes can't feel regret.
Heavenly sky so bright and blue
cleanse mine eyes this sinful fool.
The night leaves way to hideous thoughts,
the righteous minds begin to clot.
West sun setting stealing the light,
grey turns to black inhibiting our sight.
With shadowed eyes and fear we live,
rises east Sun's redemption in time to forgive.
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REALIZATION
ARNOLD A. ROSALES
THE REALIZATION OF THE BEGINNING,
A WONDERMENT OF PRESENT STATUS,
AN IDEA OF GREAT COMPREHENSION
TOWARDS MYSTERY OF ALL KNOWLEDGEABLE
ITEMS, THAT PLAGUE WEAK MINDS INTO
UNREVEALING THOUGHTLESS CONCEPTIONS OF REALITY.
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"Fool"
Amy Grant
Looking at him from across the distance
I see what we're both missing
I miss out because he loves you
You miss out because you're a fool
He looks at you and the word "beautiful" comes to his mind
You look at him and think nothing
Many nights I've dreamed of him while he dreams of you,
Writing songs that he thinks may change your mind...
But they never do
To not love someone so incredibly perfect...
You must be a fool
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Shot
dpmgjs
Shot in the dark shot in the rain the world can feel the pain.
Death becomes us every one for every war won or lost the battle field still remains lost to us.
A wince of sorrow a wince of pain the crying is still the same no more laughter no more tears.
Just another death that's all not a loss not a win just another day for the world we live in!
Shot II
And the shot continues to this day
always waiting to end your day
so what's the point and whose to blame
there's only one answer for were all the same
so when a shot rings in poring rain
and the blood it spills like acid pain
don't give in don't end the fight
for the battles not over
and you are always right
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The loss and The birth of ME:
Aimee E.
Netherland
It has been three weeks since the death of myself.
Me I have lost my innocence to a man without a name.
Ah but what a face to behold.
I could look upon it for an eternity and still not drink my fill.
He was the water that I needed to sustain me.
Me, now I am a harlot on the streets... I am hungry, nay I am thirsty for the water that I have drunk but it, he is nowhere to be found.
He was the thief in the night.
He took and I gave foolishly, with my gift I now look death in the eye.
I laugh and say no, no death you can not have me now. You see I am not good enough to knock on your door. I am unclean. I am lost. I thirst for a water that can not be fill. Will not anyone help me. I am the beggar on the street. I am the business woman in a meeting at noon. I am the teenage student sitting in English class wishing to be Juliet. I am the old grandmother who sits in her rocker waiting for death to take her by surprise. I am the alpha and the omega.
It has been three weeks since the death of myself. It will be nine months till I am born again.
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"Just a Friend"
By chelsea
When I first met you,
You seemed nice,
And we became friends,
But soon you were more
Than a friend to me.
Yet in your eyes,
I was nothing more
Than a friend.
After everything I've tried
I just can't get over you.
Am I just wasting my feelings?
Or is this something real?
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another crushed knee
Brian Magnuson
i received it as a sign
when from within the car
a soft purring dripped from
a chalice of wine
the block was not a block
it was a pot of flowers
it was a wet hat
on the man waiting at the dock
he greeted my beard
like a fish would a wall of kelp
he swam right past me
and did what i had feared
with fins he slipped off that hat
and came down to one knee
with wide eyes he peered
into the chrome grill and spat
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Witchcraft?
Pretynd
To my little glitter boy
And we spoke of auras and karma
he was my best friend again
and I was in love again
completely taken
and he awakened me at three
so he could cuddle so close to me
and I softly tickled his back
as we had done so long before
And I will miss his hands when they spoke to me
and his beautiful sideways yawn
I'll miss the way we cried together
and how safe I felt in his arms
miss the way he knew me
and when we walked in the mall
the perfect way our feet would fall
and how lying next to him
our breath was one in same
even our heartbeat
it will never be the same
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I LOST A FRIEND AND NOBODY CARED
BY TAMMY MURPHY
AGED 13
I LOST A FRIEND AND NOBODY CARED,
SHE WAS KIND AND GENTLE AND WILLING TO SHARE,
HER LIFE WAS EXCITEMENT AND ADVENTURE SHE DARED,
NOBODY UNDERSTOOD THE LOVE THAT WE SHARED,
SHE FILLED A BIG GAP IN MY HEART WITH HER LOVE,
IN THE END, GOD CALLED MY FRIEND TO HEAVEN ABOVE,
AND THAT GAP IN MY HEART WAS BACK THERE,
'CAUSE I LOST A FRIEND AND NOBODY SEEMED TO CARE.
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thoughts
Thoughts wandering
are the makings of the world.
Time spent in idleness
brings forth ideas that have changed us
to a point of no turning back.
I wonder if my procrastination
will bring me closer to the one I love.
Certainly it shall not.
For to find true love
one has to search.
But sometimes without the search
comes a true one
who will take your heart
and mold it to the sensitivities
of this world.
Will it accept me
and grow fond of me all the same.
I certainly hope so;
for I cannot live
without the experience it has given to me.
ghaynes
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To This and You
Niki Howard
What consoles you each day,
Kills me each day.
Shunned and ridiculed by you each day.
You, who hurts me so explicitly.
You, who restores my faith in hate.
To forget, O to forget would be splendor.
If splendor existed, you could forget.
But alas, my hurting shall forever continue.
And to you I owe nothing.
And to this I owe my life.
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skin on skin
reflective sin
with angels crying under sky torn
for one less ....purity
mattress and foreign skill
within ..a single diamond drop
crimson and artificial
shadows outside
move beyond the curtain's plight
lips
restrain from this mockery
hands never willingly touch another
untold tales just marks upon these sheets
and my pillow caressed and abused by your souless hair
your eyes just outlines on the mist filled window
nothing touched me like you did
nothing permeated me and threw me away
nothing
nothing ever decayed as beautifully as you did
kat
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Meaningless Thought
David Riner
Many years ago I felt as though my life
Was a gentle series of internal conflicts of
Salt water shells and personal hells
And a three-pound Jesus that sat in the middle of my shelf
Somewhere between verse on magic thieves and
Beautifully sculptured scenes of paradise
It all seemed very nice and contrite
Controlled obsessively and sold outright to the
Highest of a million. But the thought
Of their boy being sought after to swim on his own
All but killed them.
In the same light of the same moon
I sat politely and did everything they asked of me
And granted I played the fool a few thousand times
Paralyzed and preoccupied
With something I thought of far more worth
But ever bending and pressing my face
Into the drizzled earth i found the love
That set me free
To live these years in misery.
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Can you hear me cry?
Nicole DeGennaro
A small life just began.
Death arrived upon the street.
With sins to pay.
I lie awake with tears to fall I melt away.
A life away.
I shall not think.
The smallest gift of innocence.
Parts of me fall away.
Like tears drop down a sink.
My sins wake me up at night.
Reminds me of the terrible fight.
The door of my room shelters me.
And keeps the fight, away from me.
The memories hurt.
I shall not see.
But just to sleep.
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sue east side
donna
take me
where my fears come in hiding
where Hanky-smothered words can be read
etched in my leaky wrist
faint murmurs
the mindless wailing
uttered promises unkept
and misunderstood
missing in the footsteps you make
shaking up the fury
that seethes in me
piercing the air
and the familiar pain
i could never sever
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Until There was You
Heather Leigh
A soul burnt by a kiss from a star
Pain means nothing to love and desire
Seen from above, admired from afar
Yet, never once touched by that silent fire
Until there was you.
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Diliquesce
Henk Littlewood
Here is a picture of eyes
tilted, blue and pebble thin;
A salted pool of memories,
tipped with lines of laughter in
a Peerage, this sight.
Thoughts of sleeping diliquesce as
shadows lift. This morning light
threads Lapis lazuli - a phaeance
bead, across two rivers. You and I
ebb intertidally
in milky, sweet and salt inversion
like Absinthe and water; cool immersion,
a limpid, ocular singularity;
Two pupils, teach sweet charity.
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CHRISTMAS CHEER
-Navosha Katchmark-
Christmas is the time of year
To show inside your love and cheer,
To share with friends, families, and others,
Especially your mothers.
Gifts are opened on this day,
Not to show how much you paid,
But to show your love and cheer
That you have this time of year.
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~Thirsty~
trinkletoes
Clouds of gray
Like an old, old crayon
Sun disappears
Rain floods down
Dry earth welcomes
Torrents of rain
Sucks it up
Like a bathtub drain
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The Call
-shade
One day the sun will rise and cast its rays upon our eyes
Then we'll see, that their shall be no more lies.
One day the moon will fall, illuminating one and all
Then we'll shine and we'll find, we'll find our call
One day the earth will quake, upon the shores the waves will break
The seeds we've sown, now have grown, harvest awaits
Machines of man will corrode and rust, the mountains bones will turn to dust
Heavens gates will separate for those of us...
Who find the call
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TWISTED THOUGHTS OF LIGHT
MESMERIZED BY THE SIGHT OF NIGHT
I'M FEELING MY SOUL WHISPER
HELP I'M FEELING LONELY IN THIS HAPPY PLACE
HELP MY SKIN IS CHANGING
TURNING TO SOMETHING FREE
RELIEF OF A NEW NUMBER
ROLLING DOWN THE HALL
I HATE TO SEE WHAT I CAN IMAGINE
TO FEEL LOVE AGAIN
TO FEEL CLOSED TO AN OPEN WORLD
TO HEAR THE CHILDREN OF A NEW TIME
I WISH I WAS YOU
LOCKED IN A ROOM WITH NO TIME TO SPARE
I WISH I WAS YOU
JUST TO FEEL LOVED.
ASH@THE MOSH PITT
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12-27-99 What I Didn't Want
Isaac M.
O'Bannon
I didn't want to see you tonight.
The thought of seeing you never even crossed my mind.
And now, in retrospect,
I can say, with certainty, that I really didn't want to see you tonight.
You don't love me, so what's the point?
If your curiosity still drives you toward visions of me,
then you don't love him.
But if your emotions continue to pull you to him,
then you don't love me.
And then there's no point in this conversation.
It was good seeing you again,
goodbye.
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"Thump"
-Lana
Your make-shift heart
Beats
On my chest with
Dullness
Triumphs and lives inside
You
Think you've got it
Bad
News Makes your heart skip
Beats
On my chest with
Emotion
Breaks you in two
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A WISH COME TRUE
Josh Stilwell a.k.a.
CREEPER
I wished for you on a falling star.
Hoping for the chance to touch you.
I always wondered where you were.
You were in my heart but could it be;
That just maybe we were meant to be.
Some people may not believe me, but if
They could only see me. Then they would
Believe me when I say that I have finally found a love. The love of my life.
I will give up my world that I live in.
Cause it's a crying shame if I let this love I
Have for you not have a chance to live.
So lets get this right, right from the start.
Cause now that I've finally found you I am
Never going to let you go.
I am going to show my love for you every
Day for the rest of my life.
There is no one that can end this love I have
For you. All because I love you.
I love you more than this world in which we
Live in. I have been waiting for this time for all
Of my life. Waiting for the time that I could hold you in my
Arms. And hear our two hearts beat as one. And then fall
Into a peaceful sleep of love. And with that I have told you
My feelings in a few short lines but this is nothing compared
To the love that I have for you.
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CRUSH
dragulas
I see him in the hallway & I stare him down.
But when he doesn't stare back, I walk away with a frown.
I try to get his attention anyway I can.
I honestly have to confess, yes, I want him as my man.
I think about him all the time, in a dreamy sort of way.
Maybe he'll sweep me off my feet & take me far away.
When I walk by him in the hallway I hope that he'll say "Hi".
But when he doesn't I say, "Maybe next time", with a sigh.
I know when class is over he'll be gone without a trace.
I always think about him when in bed at half past nine,
Maybe some day I'll get the guts to ask him to be mine.
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I'm Sorry
By Alexis
Well here I am again
Back in sorrow
Seems like I live here
In no tomorrow
I'm a regular visitor
I wish it wasn't so
See what you've done?
How much I'm in woe?
You obviously don't want me
And don't care how I feel
I guess I was wrong
About how you really feel
I'm sorry for liking you
And wanting to see you
I'm sorry for thinking
You liked me too
I'm sorry for being a burden
And wasting your breath
I'm sorry for hurting
And being depressed
I'm sorry for caring
And calling you too
I'm sorry for being a fool
And thinking higher of you
I'm sorry for me
And the way I feel
I'm sorry for thinking
It's such a big deal
I'm sorry for being me
And being mad at you
But you deserve it
You know you do
You play with girls
And make them cry
And make them wish
That you would die
You dump them off
And find someone new
Then what am I apologizing for?
I should feel sorry for you!
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"No One Understands"
luvntequila
No one understands
the feelings that I get
the confusion i endure
the things I must forget.
No one understands
why my stomach turns
what I hold inside
or why my heart yearns
No one understands
why I write these words
but I write them anyway
even though they go unheard.
And if I let them go free
the fact still will be
That no one understands.....
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"Star Light, Star Bright..."
Kerri Leigh
Abney
Star Light, star bright,
first star I see
tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might,
have this wish I
wish tonight...
Oh, Beautiful Star, shining down upon me,
I have but one wish to ask of thee,
If this is truly concerted and fated for me,
then I shall halt this foolish battle with reality.
I wish for comfort as these last moments pass,
To be shielded from the pain of my awaiting tortured death.
May it be quick, please shelter me,
for this is all I ask of thee.
I wish you lend a shoulder for my mom to shed her tears,
and, a baby soft white handkerchief for my dad as his pride nears.
For chance there be a twist of fate, a loosened grip of the blade of hate.
To the only star I can see tonight, I wish for strength, for hope, for my life.
Underneath the only shred of hope my blurry eyes can see,
My weary silenced voice is screaming, calling out for thee!
I shall wish to you in silence, you shall see it in my eyes,
for I wish with all that I am worth,
I wish to see the light...
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(Is love not but a desire of hope and learning that
will stand a test of time)
Sam Trujillo
love is like a burning fire, with all fate and all desire
it grows in time with no regret, touching hearts, taking bets,
knowing not what will come soon your world comes not so clear but
gloom, thinking all the times were better standing whole all but bitter
finding out weather he is write is all in time not over night.
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" I WISH "
MANDY WILLIAMSON
I wish I had an easier life.
I wish I could spend more time with my boyfriend.
I wish I wouldn't have to make hard decisions.
I wish people would leave me the hell alone so I can actually think.
I wish people would accept me for who I am.
I wish people would quit acting so immature.
I wish I could float up in the air and become invisible when my problems become
so hard.
I wish I could find a friend that was just like me.
I wish my brother would quit being an @sshole and try to be there for me when I
need him.
I wish my sister would quit putting herself down because she's not like everybody else.
I wish I could wish and my wish would come true!
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Goodbye Again
Shauntia Shockley
Time went by so fast
And the memories I thought would last
had flown from my mind and in no time
were replaced with love of a different kind.
Sweet and caring. Wild and true.
I took my heart and I gave it to you.
You worshipped my body with your tender caress
We'll be together forever forever. We'll pass the test.
We'll have a big house far, far away
with lots of room for our children today.
A big dog that sleeps in our bed at night
And my arms will protect you. They'll hold you tight.
All these things you said to me
And like a fool i surely believed.
You'd never hurt me, you weren't the type
The radices of our love was brighter than bright.
But the restless you grew and I already knew
The love I needed wouldn't come from you
Tears rolled down as I faced the wind
And knew it was time to say goodbye again.
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Dwelling On Old Memories
Jolene Kvamme
Sifting through the ashes,
Of someone else's death,
Retrieving the old lost memories,
That, to you, are still painful and deplorable.
Wanting to throw them all away,
But never trying to forget,
So easy to say,
Yet so hard to do.
Always defying yourself,
Then elapsing into the past,
The dire memories,
causing you to dwell.
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True Love
E.M.B
with heart and soul
I love thee
with mind and matter
I love thee
I would climb hill and mountain
Just to love thee
with all my life
I love thee
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You
Kalli, kalli
I wish I could relive,
Every moment I was with you,
It seemed eternity couldn't outlast,
The moment our lips touched,
Knowing I was yours,
And no one else's,
Made me feel safe,
I spent whole days wondering,
When we would be together again.
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-Heaven-
lisa lichtenstein
Heaven is a place
that you go when you die
When you think of it in disgrace
it makes you wanna cry
Your loved ones go there
instead of suffering
It is better without despair
to think of you while I'm snuffling
When I think of you
I feel all blue
You come to tell me everything will be all right
but I look at you in fright
You ask what's wrong
I said I do not belong
My friends are teasing
and threatening
to kill me
I'm so afraid, can you help me?
You say
come with me and forget all your worries
I said sure, okay
only if I hurry
Take me to heaven a beautiful place
Where I can see you shining face
I'm up in the clouds
way so high
I see you through heavy crowds
and I wonder why
I scream and shout
Hey, is that you
You say with a pout
and without a clue
I have to go
I can't stay any longer
I don't know
but I think you can be stronger
I start to cry
You turn away and say good-bye
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I have one simple wish for you on this day,
That when I look in your eyes you do not turn away.
You mean the world to me.
I could never let go
Of that sweet, loving smile that I used to know.
As days go by it is all I wish to see.
It's that place in the sun where I long to be.
With you by my side I could face anything.
Everything that you do makes my heart want to sing.
All you know, all you say, all you pretend to be,
I hold dear in my heart.
You must be blind not to see how my heart skips a beat,
Every time you are near.
We've had good times and bad through this ongoing year.
I wish you could know of the pain I go through
As I go on living each day without you
My love for you will always be true.
For every day is only for you.
Linz19838
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FALLING
Nisha Stead
I crave the warmth and safety of your arms around me,
trying to put an end to my pain.
Gently, you wipe away my tears as they sream down my face.
I begin to feel faint as I inhale your scent, a fresh, intoxicating sweetness.
As you lay beside me, I feel dizzy with excitement.
When you touch me softly, I fall.
Down, deeper.
Deeper into happiness.
Falling into love.
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The unexpected kiss
Amanda O.
The lights were dim
the music played
in each others arms
a single dance
we forgot for a moment
where we were
our lips join together
in an unexpected kiss
A feeling of confusion
unnatural circumstance
fingers intertwined
ours eyes deep in trance
if only for a second
passion took control
her lips touched mine
in an unexpected kiss
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Always Free
Shazad Shah
A place where darkness and light are as one,
A streamlined body leaps toward the sun.
The waters are clashing as it flies through the air,
And it catches your eyes with a mystical stare.
The waters crash with a tremendous roar,
As the crowd claps and wants to see more.
A dolphin is abused for the pleasures of man,
It's freedom taken away by the movement of hands.
In the wild they once lived free,
while now their trapped and enslaved into captivity.
But they won't learn to hate you or me,
because in their minds they were always free.
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Care No More
Ashley Bell
My anger rages like a flame
I cannot hide for there's no shame
You hurt and destroyed No longer I live
My heart and my blood are all I can give
You keep my blood but throw my heart away
I am left broken with nothing to say
You'll never escape my hate for you
You broke my heart you tore it in two
Don't come around and bother me
I care no more as everyone can see
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IM FINDING OUT.
TAMAR GREATRIX
THE BRANCHES ARE HANGING DOWN SCRATCHING AT MY FACE,
MY ARMS, MY LEGS.
I HAVE A FEELING THAT SEEMS TO EXPLAIN TO MUCH BUT TELL ME NOTHING.
MY BODY FEELS SO WEAK BUT THROUGH THIS FORREST IM RUNNING STRONG.
RUNNING FROM OR AFTER WHAT?..
I AWAKE
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Ever since the first time I saw you,
I knew you had something I'd never seen before
I've had crushes, but you mean so much more
I feel something for you i can not even put into words
At one point I looked into your eyes, and then I knew...
Since that first day I had fallen in love with you
It's not a crush or anything of the kind
It's the sort of love where I can't get you off my mind
You are with me when i wake up, and with me when i lay down.
It seems impossible to get you out of my mind
It's not even because you are so cute
I love you because of the way you are
And how you make me feel like I could reach the stars
You just don't know how it feels when you reject me like that
Its like, you throw me on the ground and leave me there crying.
I've always thought that, maybe you would love me.
But, it will not happen in this lifetime.
You could never love me, for what i am .
The way i love you.
And, i love you just because....
FyreFLye
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It's Called Love
Lisa Dubois
In my mind I see him near,
Every second his voice I hear.
Yet I see him fading fast,
I know his words will never last.
His warm embrace I long to feel,
My poor heart I know he will steal.
Does he wander, Does he care,
How can he know of my despair.
Does he long to be with me,
Will he share the dreams I see.
What are these things written above,
Why my friend It's Called Love.
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~You Were The One~
spooky
We walked home, doing nothing but simple talking
We became friends both knowing but a few people
Or so I thought, I later found out That you had known people the whole time
What was it that made you let me think that I was one Of the few that you would let in, Let in, to see what was really underneath that harsh exterior
You taught me to open my eyes to see things I never dreamed I could
Other people had thoughts too You showed me that I was not the only one with opinions With opinions that were right,
I was lost without you, I didn't even know something was missing Until I found what it was Now, it is missing again, I have completely shut out reality,
Not even realizing that you were missing,
Until you were so far gone, there was no way to get you back
I pushed you out with my hands of selfishness
I kicked you out with my feet of harsh words and thoughts
You were so far gone, with no way to take back All the lies and covers, All the secrecy and misdirection If only I had shown some appreciation for all you have done for me Maybe you wouldn't have left me, In my dark clouds of loneliness
I try to think of all I have said and done to drive you to leave
I cannot remember enough to even cover half of the damage
I must have inflicted upon you, without acknowledging you were in pain,
But yet, I don't even think you knew you were in pain
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As I was walking down the stairs,
your unfamiliar face saw mine,
so angelic, so pure,
and your eyes,
blue as the sea,
Mare Nostrum,
your body like hers who was born by the rock,
the golden sun, your crown.
I saw you walking down the stairs,
yet I dared say not a thing,
and now I cry inside,
my soul weeps for it's emptiness.
defteras
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Hermit Crab
BabyGrl7
I see you as you walk past
I see the confusion on your face
Do you even realize what I see?
Probably not; for my removal from the world is so completely
that most people don't know that I can see
But I see; and the more that is shown, the more I am convinced
to stay inside my shell
defended; protected from the hatred and the loneliness of outside
the cold stares of those who don't understand
the manipulating smiles of those who would use me
I stay inside my shell
love and friendship I've tried before, but something always fails;
always falters. So it is better for me
to stay inside my shell
And I dare not let anyone in- for sharing my shell would be to share my mind, my soul, my world
the thought terrifies me
so I stay inside my shell
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~FROM HEAVEN TO HELL~
SOLO0
When you went away my sky turned gray,and I prayed for
you to come back some day.
If by chance you don't come
back,a part of my heart i'll always lack.
All day and night I sit and cry,cause for you I would've
died.
My love for you was always pure,but of that I guess
you were not sure.
When a thought of you comes to mind,it shootsme back far
through time.
To the first time we met face to face,at
which time I shot of into space.
When I thought I couldn't fly higher,you told me I was
your hearts only desire.
But as time went on and on,you
forgot how to sing our song.
Then without any signal or warning,you packed up and left
in the morning.
I fell from heaven down to hell,all
because in love I fell.
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Deep Within the Shadows of Despair
Taylor
Morgen
Somewhere deep in the shadows lies the pain that once was you.
How incredibly sorrowful was the last glance you gave me
With the look in your eyes that burned for recognition,
I saw the emotion dwell in your soul
Carrying with you the memory of a beloved as the wind carries a seed on its back
I knew then that my love was rejected, but ease my agony it did not
I longed for your heart to want me and your mind dream of me
For awhile I could fool myself, but no more can I stand this relapse of hope
Kindling despair that hangs on my spirit as the depression clings to your being
Could it be we both experience the same, both loving those that scorn us?
To me love is but a cruel fate killing the emotions we bring forth
Grasping only sadness to give back to its helpless victims.
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FOUR WALLS
Jerod
THE MOON SHINES HIGH IN THE DARK SKY
THE STARS GLISTEN BEHIND A CLOUDLESS GLOW
I LIE BETWEEN FOUR WALLS AWAKE, ALONE.
THE PICTURE ON THE SCREEN FLICKERS ALOUD
BUT I AM MESMERIZED IN THOUGHTS OF YOU.
I LOOK DEEPLY INTO THE DARKNESS, LISTEN
THE SLOW SOUNDS OF A HEART BEAT, MINE
WHEN THE LIGHTS WENT DOWN I WHISPERED
A PRAYER FOR THANKFULNESS, GRACE AND LOVE.
I CAN'T SLEEP AGAIN TONITE, AS I WANDER
THROUGH SPACE AND TIME, SPEED IT UP I THINK
FOR NOW IS HURTING, BEYOND ME I SEE LOVE,
I PLEDGED TO THEE, MY TRUE LOVE WILL BE
YOURS FOREVER, BUT IT IS SO DARK RIGHT NOW,
BETWEEN FOUR WALLS THAT CRY WITH ME,
NOT TEARS ARE SHED BUT PAIN OF MISSING YOU,
A SONG WE KNOW STARTS TO PLAY, I SEE YOU
BRING YOUR PHOTO TO MY LIPS, GOOD NIGHT MY LOVE.
I AM SO WEARY AS I LAY SO STILL, CURL MY LEGS,
I FEEL YOUR WARMTH, I TOUCH YOUR FACE, YOUR HAIR
OUR HEARTS BEAT, TOGETHER AS ONE, EYES SHUT
I SMELL THE SCENT OF YOU BESIDE ME, SWEET, INNOCENT
LIGHTNING STRIKES, AND THUNDER ROLLS, THIS BED
FEELS SO BIG NOW, EYES ARE OPEN, JUST A FLICKER,
THE WALLS COME CLOSE TO PROTECT MY THOUGHTS,
DREAMS FADE AWAY BACK TO MY LONELY VIEW,
THE PHONE RINGS, AWAKEN, GOOD MORNING MY LOVE.
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children you got to love the man,oh lord take us by the hand,you got to make us understand. I tell you we need the jew or we will die. i tell you i tell you i tell you i tell you we need god or we will die a sinner out alone is like a dog without a bone into jesus house we were born. don't try to hide or you will die I say you will die. Oh god knock knock on our soul.kids you got to answer that door soon or later and later might be to late befor that end comes, Now he's going to love you for the rest of his life. I tell you.i tell you i tell you. i tell you we need god or we will, we will DIE!
christopher e. miles
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He asked what Life had left
But it was silent
Again, he said what more
And Life said
Do you think I owe you at all
It was not me who was dormant
I laid experience out for all
It was there but never taken
So he asked Dearth for the answer and was suddenly taken cold
For its silence spoke to him more
Than all that death had told
So now we know he did it
It doesn't seem enough
But he would say it is as it seems
He didn't have the love
And now he lives through dreams
allison
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QUITTING TIME
~Plato Kuvelis~
Black asphalt, black sky
Streams of white reflectors
Rushing red river,
Tail lights
They
Will navigate
The drive home
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WHY
Wayne Napper
ALL AROUND ME I SEE PEOPLE DIE
I PUT MY FACE IN MY HANDS AND CRY
ALL I CAN SAY IS WHY O WHY
I CRY IN THE WIND WITH A LOUD PLEA
GOD SAVE US ALL AND NOT
JUST ME
THE TREES MOVE WITH THE SWAY OF THE WIND
SIGNALING THE START TO A WAR ABOUT TO
BEGIN
STOP THIS MADNESS I CRY
ALL I SEE IS PEOPLE DIE
SOMEBODY TELL ME
WHY?
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"Pain Addiction"
Bliss201
A passionate stab to the soul,
but it only makes you stronger.
Look through the empty hole,
a part of you life no longer.
what is love when you lose it with one bad hand?
and what good is taking sides-
when you don't know where to stand?
Pulled from both ends,
you lay alone in pieces.
the knife digs deep to form mere creases.
You don't know why you hurt,
but you love it never the less.
Complaining about life never does you any good,
but it calms you-
you must confess.
A howling thunder brings new rain.
Out of the dust, the fight for life goes on.
The night leaves a too familiar pain,
But the colors remain on the nuclear dawn.
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Suicide
jessicka rodriguez
This place is hell.
Backstabbers, Thugs, Manipulators.
This place is school.
This place is hell.
Being told what to do, when to do it, how to do it.
This place is home.
This place is hell.
Chaos, corruption, war.
This place is earth.
THIS PLACE IS EARTH.
Everything combined together.
tO MUCH STRESS?
too MUCH PAIN?
NOTHING TO GAIN?
NOTHING TO GAIN FOR?
Is this where you want to be?
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Reality Disrupts My Life
Mikey J
I see two people with great relation.
An endearment every person should share.
A serious action that should be taken in hand.
An issue that can be rectified,
With anyone who contains an open mind.
I see a world far from perfection,
Although this would delay opposition.
A conjunction can be formed
To simplify a powerful emotion...
LOVE.
The people I saw were not black OR white,
But a race that bleeds red.
What did you think?
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You tell me not to rehash that now,
You love me anyway.
If only you knew the heinous ways I think,
And the sadistic games I play.
I'm doing the best I've ever done
To keep my solem vow,
But it seems the harder that I try
I slip and give in somehow
So don't say how you care without condition,
It only makes me cry
For all the innocence I've lost,
And all my reasons why.
ashlie
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ACTUALIZING
Les Conway
I believe love will always be present........
I hope tomorrow will be fairer........
I wish for happiness as-
I dream of yesterday........
Yet---I'm living for Today!
Tomorrow----Some say there's always tomorrow........
Why wait when there is Today.
Life is precious---Every stolen moment---Every forsaken second!
Enjoy---Do enjoy Today-
I cannot say there is a Tomorrow.
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*Distance*
QTKristy
You are so far away
But near in the heart
I can almost touch your hand
As we once again part.
And every time I talk to you again
My heart fills up with joy
and then suddenly, lost again
My heart feeling like an abandoned toy.
Then at night I lie awake
Wishing you were here
And remembering all the good times
As a single drop falls, a tear.
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Two Lives, one Heart
FlashB
You are of the light.
Yet, you are the darkest part.
I am a maiden of the darkness.
Yet, you see me as a light in the dark.
Two sides of the same coin, you and I.
We live of one heart.
One longing for love.
Yet, we find it in each other.
So close.
In your embrace,
I know I am meant to be here.
With you.
We are one.
We share a heart.
Romance, hopes, longing.
Two as one, we are.
One heart.
We have shared pain,
Joy, love.
We share a heart.
We share a romance.
Yet, we are two.
We have so much in common.
Yet we are so different...
You live in a world of hope.
I live in a world of sorrow.
You bring me to peace.
I bring you to realize the world
You celebrating your dreams.
Me, mourning for my reality.
But now, I have no more to mourn about.
For now,
I have you...
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YOU
HARNIFER LUMANOG VALERIO
you,
give meaning to my life
i feel so important as you entered my heart
after letting me know that night
i wasn't been able to sleep tight.
you,
made my life complete
a sudden twist, a big leap
how hard to hide a certain beat
sometimes i feel i'm so stupid.
you,
jailed my heart into confusions
what if your feelings is just an infatuation?
you might just leave me into depression
i hate to come on that situation.
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Once More
*K. Walden*
Intimidating, Your stare?
No,
Only inviting.
Careless hands fall upon my cheek.
Pressing your face onto my own.
I lay still,
Drunk,
With the scent of your skin.
Silent words, whispered,
Into a careful ear.
Your voice, only purrs promises,
Of what's yet to come.
Use your tongue,
Slowly.
Grace the golden shrine that has become me.
My lust for your body only increases with the seconds.
An eternity.
Waiting,
For you to touch me,
Once more.
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Confusion
Amy L. Grant
Caught up in passion, our rational minds leave us and we indulge in the many flavors of bliss
I am intoxicated by your presence and become a drunkard at the touch of your hand
My mind spins and has no control over my body ~ you were always the tame one...but not now
You have lost your inner battle and given in to venery
My mind tried to persuade my body, but it doesn't listen
I wonder if you love me...I think that you do, but you can't open Pandora's box for fear that our love may fly away
So many times I've wanted to tell you how I feel ~ the words come, but I don't tell you
You believe it's better to know without being told
Even though the love is there, our passion must stop
If only I could press rewind and make us start over...I wouldn't move so fast...we'd probably just be friends
A year from now I see us on two different paths that cannot entwine
My life is a road, winding macadam fading into the horizon...
Yours is a flowing stream at the end of a winding river...
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